Spring Semester's Coming

My winter break is coming to an end.

Finally.

I'm actually excited to start school again, especially seeing everyone there. These past few weeks have really been a period of self-analyzation (is that a word?) and getting my head together. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I know what I'm looking for. This year is going to be amazing.

Firstly, some of you may have noticed that I have deleted my facebook/myspace accounts, which actually surprised myself how much time I wasted on those two websites. I feel that although you do communicate with people through those things, it really is detaching the true connection between people. From now on, I'd rather meet people in person more often and actually have a truer conversation going. If not that, actually spending the time to call people. I believe it removes the barrier of time and facades. 

The funny thing is, when you deactivate your account, they make it seem as if you're ending your life, which I found pretty hilarious. It said, "Are you sure you want to deactivate your account? You will not be able to communicate with 313 of your friends." Then five random friends with their pictures show up saying, "[Random person] will miss you." and then gives the option of sending last messages to those people. Then it lists a bunch of reasons as to why I might want to deactivate my account. I picked "I do not find Facebook useful," and then suddenly a box shows up and tells me that "Facebook is actually useful and you can find friends through *bullshit blah blah etc*." 

But I went through with this rediculous "suicide." How degenerative are we to rely on a website as a part of our lives? It's sad.

Secondly, I think I've decided that I am going to pursue a career in music. I've always said I wanted to do something in music, but I never really put in the effort to even start. But that doesn't mean I'm going to quit school or anything like that. I'm still going to major in business marketing, because I know that I don't have much of a chance of being successful in the music industry. However I am keeping my hopes up and I plan on investing in some studio recording equipment and such. Even though I enjoy playing piano, guitar, and recently bass, I think I'm going to make electronic music. Hopefully I'll be like those DJs at huge raves and stuff like that. But more importantly, I want to make music that's unique and has my name written all over it.

I feel as though there are two types of people who exist. People are either consumers or producers. Consumers are those of the mainstream, living life complacently and being fed all the pleasures of the world. I feel like I am a consumer, just seeking things to use and enjoy. But lately I've questioned if I'm happy with that, and frankly I don't think I am. I want to be a producer, a person who creates things for others to consume. I think producers maybe slightly off-kilter and strange, but its just the fact that they know there is more to achieve in life. Thus I want to be a musician, and create music that people will enjoy. I want to be one step ahead of everyone else, and accomplish something.

I want to be happy with myself. And hopefully I will be able to say so in the near future.

(P.S. Let me know how you feel. You can post remarks here without having a Blogger account, so let me know if you have something on your mind!)