My brother got married! It seriously is pretty amazing and it's kind of hard for me to wrap my mind around that. Two families merging. I have like 20 different relatives now, it's shocking.
And weddings are definitely not easy to plan or do. I didn't even get married and I was nervous and busy the whole weekend! All my relatives came over my house, and some of them are even staying in my room for the next 2 weeks. It's really tiring for me, and I can't wait to get my room back.
But I realized that my brother got married the same age as my mom, and I've seen my mom's wedding photos countless of times. And it really hits me, because we're all getting older, and my brother is going through the same process my mom has gone though since she had us. I mean, I'm still 19, I think I'm young, but to see my family constantly getting older, and years are going by so much faster now, I feel pressured to really pursue everything I want to do now.
I really don't want to slack off anymore. I want to try hard in school and get into the music department and make music and be successful. I just started practicing piano again, and I have a lot of work to do. But I really want to push myself to be the person I want to be. I feel so complacent and "mainstream". I really want to define myself and what I am and what people see me and know me as.
Back to piano.
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thanks jeff for the comment. talking to my mom did help, but i was just mad she told my dad that. i dont know. and my boobs are getting smaller because ive been working out. one of the draw backs. haha
youre a brother-in-law. thats so crazy.
but thats good youre more motivated to do well. im trying not to focus on being so pessimistic and just think about school and get everything done with. everything seems less exciting, but at the same time less depressing when you keep yourself busy.
i really like that song too
back to the black and white! niceee, I wish I made time to practice piano on my own. godspeed jeff! and I really hope you're feeling better! :T
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